Meghan Bowman


Merry Christmas!

It has been awhile since I've been on here. Thank you for continuing to check in with me! 


Much has happened in my life this past year. It has been one of those hard years if I'm being honest. But there has also been a lot of personal growth. Funny how those things seem to go hand in hand. 


Musically speaking, I had a really fun and full year. I played a handful of shows the past few months. Usually starting with some acoustic -piano and vocal numbers and then ending with my cello and loop pedal. 

How was your year? Feel free to send me a message or drop me a comment below? I love hearing from you! It has been cool to connect with people from all over the world, mostly because of my crazy cello youtube channel. I can't even watch some of those earlier videos!! Haha


Merry Christmas and Blessings,


Walmart Vocal Rest.

Hello! Thanks for coming to read my random and strange thoughts. 


As many of you know, I am a full time musician, making a living in this crazy world of music by doing several different things. Teaching guitar, piano, voice and theory lessons, doing wedding music (I have always felt I could relate to Adam Sandler in the Wedding Singer, although I have never serenaded anyone on a plane), performing different instruments on other people's projects, my own singer-songwriter income; including but not limited to performing, radio play, school performances, music therapy sessions, facilitating workshops, good old fashioned CD sales, etc. And I also do things like lead worship at various places. I just got home from one of these events this afternoon actually. 


However, something that is sort of a new development with me is the pain that I have been feeling in my vocal cords when I sing. It feels like a serious problem because I am a singer. I learned in singing lessons when I was a kid and also tell my own students ALL THE TIME that if they feel pain when they sing they need to stop singing. So here I am, trying to not be a hypocrite, and put myself on an intensive vocal rest for a few days. It is super hard to do this when you are trying to make a living in the way that I am trying to make a living. But damaging my vocal chords permanently is not worth a pay cheque.


I should mention I also saw a doctor today and he looked down my throat and in my ears and said everything looked good. So that is good news. The pain is here because my vocal folds are telling me it's time for a break - this week has been extensive as far as how much I have sung. I tried to rest my voice in the past couple of weeks but only for hours at a time. The folds seem to need more time to heal than that. So I am officially on vocal rest - don't call me! lol. Who am I kidding? Nobody calls me on the phone anymore!


So here I am, trying not to sing OR talk, writing a blog to the eyes that will read this. I hope if you take anything away from this, it is to take care of yourself. Also, I am learning nobody is going to do that job for you. To be honest, I feel incredibly nervous about contacting all the people I have to contact to tell them I won't be seeing them/singing for them/talking to them this week. I don't like to let people down. I don't know why I think this is any sort of let down though. I'm just setting boundaries for myself and my vocal cords, because this is about longevity. 


Ok enough about the cords. The real reason why I started writing this is because I am constantly fascinated by how "disconnected" we are becoming as a society. We stay in our own little bubbles on our own little devices in our own little worlds. Don't get me wrong, I love social media and cell phones. But there are pros and cons to everything and I definitely see a lot of cons to this social media world we find ourselves in. In a way we feel more connected to each other but in other ways we are far more disconnected. This is one of the reasons I love music! And going to a live show - people seem genuinely connected to the moment at concerts (most of the time).


As I was sitting here thinking about what could I get done tonight without talking at all... I began to think about some groceries I need to pick up - and I excitedly realized I could go to the nearest Walmart without talking to a soul (hello self check-outs)! Even the greeters don't really greet anymore. At least, generally when I look their way and flash a smile, I don't seem to get much back. And that's fine! Especially on a night like tonight. Let's go buy some ice cream and liquorice mint tea!


Meghan out. How all over the place was this blog?


Happy New Year!

I haven't written anything for awhile. That's just because I'm terribly busy doing all things music!


Happy New Year to all of you. Thanks for all of your kind words and emails this past year. You have encouraged me greatly! 




Seasons Greetings

As I sit here preparing to sing at a friend's funeral tomorrow, I weep. 


Why are the holidays so hard for so many? Why is there so much darkness surrounding us? 


If this resonates with you, I want to tell you, you are not alone. Because of my work in music therapy, along with my teaching job, partnered with my other musical ventures, I come into close proximity with hundreds of people every week, and I have been noticing a theme over the past few weeks: people are hurting and people are stressed. 


Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas. And something I have learned is that pain makes me really present (something we often aren't in our technology, social media driven world). So this Christmas, as I struggle a little bit, I allow my own pain and stress to help me learn what's really important. I'm trying to let go of any pressure I feel from others to buy the whole world gifts, or do a ton of Christmas baking or whatever. And i just want to enjoy the holidays. I want to enjoy the time I get to spend with my friends and family. 


But first, I grieve with my loved ones tomorrow. Recognizing that we lost another great friend. 


Merry Christmas to you. Thank you for being a part of my journey. 

A blog about hateful comments and losing followers.

I'm not really sure how to write this post. I have been trying to write something like this for the past few months, but I always press "delete" instead of "publish". 


I'm not sure if I should be light-hearted or really really honest about what is happening in my heart at the moment. I'm not sure if it'll be too much for people. I have often felt like I can be "too much". 


I have spent the past 3 years learning how to be open and honest and vulnerable in my day to day life, as well as on social media. I am at the point though, where I am calculating the cost. Is it worth it? It's a difficult thing to put your honest self out there... to find so much crtisicim and rejection. Rejection sucks. Am I right? it just does. We often get really angry and hateful when we've been rejected. It lessens the blow it seems, when you can aim your rejection at someone else. Maybe you can even find someone else to reject. But it takes way more guts to actually feel the hurt, admit the pain and then move on, putting the pieces back together. 


Ok let's get to it.


What really inspired this post, is a comment I received this morning on one of my YouTube videos. I'm not going to tell you it word for word - it was quite colourful. But it was something about how I should get off of my ****** *** and actually contribute to society. 


I'm not going to give you any context for what this comment was aimed at, and I'm not going to explain it much further.


I shut off my phone, immediately upon reading these words that a stranger directed at me, I put my head in my hands for a second and just felt that rush go through my body. Does anyone else ever feel that? It's kind of exhausting. Sometimes this feeling feels like it could knock me out. Sometimes I'm simply in my car when I feel it, and I have to just put my hand on my heart for a sec and tell myself I'm ok. 


How did we get here? Why do we treat people like this? I love the internet, I really do. I know it has benefited my life. But it has also created this really ugly part of society, where we feel the need to tell someone, when we don't like them.


Some of you may be thinking, this comment was isolated. No it wasn't. The more I put myself out there - the more this happens.


But the more I have put myself out there, the more people have appreciated it too. I have had people from all corners of the world send me an email to tell me about something I did that they really liked.


Thank you to those people. That has been a cool part about all this. 


I'm feeling exhausted suddenly so will write the "losing followers" portion later. For now, let's just agree to continue trying to learn how to like ourselves. That's really the only way to deal with stuff like this. And also, let's learn how to tell someone we appreciate what they do, when we feel that way.

life and love and loneliness.

Hello World,


What a crazy life. What a crazy world. Full of heartache. Full of disappointment. Full of beauty and generosity. And I am convinced that one cannot live without the other. Darkness and light are opposites and they reveal each other. 


It is in the seasons of despair that I have learned what gratitude, joy and worship look like. It is in loneliness that I have learned how to let people in. It is because of hard times that I can appreciate and live in the beautiful, fullest moments.


Time keeps moving. I keep celebrating birthdays. Babies keep being born and people keeping passing away. I can't stop such things. I can only keep moving on with time. 


*You may wonder what sparked such a blog post and often I get real specific about what's going on with me. But not today. Today I just needed to be real vague. Thanks for reading. Keep walking.

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First Orchestra Experience

Hello, thanks for visiting this page.


Life keeps changing so drastically. I keep changing so drastically. 


Things seem like they get harder and harder. But at the same time, I feel like in the midst of the difficulty, I have greater appreciation for the simple things. For example, sometimes after a long, hard day, I head out for a walk on the grid road (if I'm at my parents) and just enjoy the quiet and the sunset. I might see some wildlife - I've seen lots of coyotes, a moose and several deer on that road and I'll just enjoy watching them in their simplicity. Yes, occasionally, scary things happen - like I had a coyote stalk me once... but I grew up in this area and I know what to do if animals start to turn on me. 


The funny thing is, I always bring my phone and headphones with the intention of listening to the latest album I downloaded on my phone... but I rarely actually follow through on it. 


I am a musician, so maybe you think that music would fill my ears most of the day. But I have never been one to put on my music while I'm doing homework... sometimes I do when I'm cleaning, or exercising... but often I just love the sounds that the world around me creates. 


Or I love silence. Someone I went on tour once, said "silence is underrated" as we were discussing what album to put on in the car for the next stretch of driving. She was indicating that it was ok to not turn any music on. I agreed whole heartedly with her.


Do you know that silence is an important part of the music. As I have recently become a music teacher, I have been teaching students about the values of each rest (like an eight note rest vs. a quarter note rest). If you don't like music theory, or don't like talking about it, stay with me here, I will stop soon. 


My point is... if there were no rests in music ever... the notes wouldn't be as beautiful or as organized. It is the rests that make the phrasing so beautiful. What I'm getting at here is it is my appreciation for silence that makes my appreciation for music so much greater.


The reason why I actually started writing this is to talk about my first orchestra experience. That happened recently! Last week, I spent all week with a group of about 30 different string players learning orchestral music. At the end of the week, we played our dress rehearsal in a hospital (treated it like a flash mob) and then played our final concert at the end of the week. Somehow we ended up having about two hours worth of material! That's all I have to say about that now. I'm about to head out to teach.


Musician To Do List.

I thought it would be fun to show you what an average day looks like for the average musician.


I am writing this post with the awareness that I may not be what everyone would consider the "average musician". But I am just that...


There is this fantasy about what said "average musician" is. To be honest, I'm not even sure what that fantasy entails anymore.

But I can assure you, what the "average musician" really is... is someone who is working their tail off. They may be experiencing some level of success at the moment. They may not be worried about how they're going to pay their power bill... but they have likely had their fair share of moments like that. 


If they are going through a period of success, they are probably also experiencing an equal level of rejection. I have learned that the more people you have listening to you, or following you, the more likely you are going to receive emails or comments from people who don't get you or don't like what you're doing or they may even not like YOU (or they think they don't).


The musician works hard at their craft. They probably have several projects on the go at one time and have to learn how to have stamina to complete some of those projects, and they have to have the intelligence to know which ones to let go of. 


To Do List for today (literally):


1) Wake up + coffee

2) catch up on emails

3) Finish editing new Cello Diaries video and upload to Youtube (new thing I have been working on)

4) Instagram business

5) Practice cello - lesson tomorrow - get bar 34 down on the Minuet so I can move on this week!

6) Finish Music Therapy internship proposal and send to my supervisor

7) Coffee

8) Vacuum music room and living room

9) Do laundry

10) Set up voice/piano student schedule for August

11) Lunch

12) Teach some awesome piano/voice students for a few hours

13) Late supper.

14) ...

7 Things I Learned About Vulnerability

Hello all. It's been awhile. 

Things are rapidly changing. My life is changing. I am changing. 

I have spent the last few years of my life practicing vulnerability. What is vulnerability? What does it look like? Is it good? Bad? What does it feel like?

I was sure that vulnerability was what the world was looking for... I was sure it was what I was looking for. Therefore, I released my most vulnerable work to date: The Watchmen. This album was/is a lot of things. I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I wrote it about a weird thing I experienced on a bus one day with a stranger. 

I have told this story a handful of times now and you think it would get easier. You think once you release an album about a certain thing and have processed the thing more than you have processed greater tragedies in your life, that it would get easier. 

But basically, the dude on the bus said some aggressive things to me. He scared me. My body and mind and voice reacted in strange ways. Then his hands were on me. 

I don't want to say anymore about it in this moment. It still makes me feel weird.The police got involved and called it an assault. I can assure you... I didn't want it be that. That's what you call something after someone has a mark or a scar or blood on them right? I didn't think I had any of those things on me.

But my life was affected in ways greater than I care to admit. I am still affected. I experience all sorts of reactions from people. Some don't know what to say to me, and some think I should get over it. 

Anyways, I am in a time in my life where I am questioning the level of vulnerability I want to be with people. Can you be too vulnerable? I'm not sure. But that's not really what this blog is about. It's about the things I have learned the past few years as I have been practicing vulnerability.


1) It doesn't feel how you think it's going to feel. The idea of vulnerability is romantic, but it often feels terrifying. 

- I remember getting ready to tell my story in front of rooms full of people this year. I remember standing in front of my stove one time wondering how in the world I was going to get through it. I remember feeling weak in the knees and even somewhat dehydrated. I wasn't sure if I could go through with it. I didn't want to be that exposed. But then I always got through it. I told the people. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I didn't. And afterwards, it felt different then I expected too. I felt strong and weak at the same time. I feel like people knew my weakness, and that was a scary thing. Sometime I felt super connected to people, and sometimes my vulnerability made me feel more alone. Which brings me to #2


2) There is no guaranteed outcome with vulnerability.

- this is actually the definition of vulnerability. The whole point of being vulnerable is to let someone see you... the real you. And you hope to be accepted and appreciated by them. But there is no guarantee that they will accept you.Which brings me to #3


3) Vulnerability is risky. 

4) Vulnerability is a gift to others.

- we live in such a shallow world. At least I think so. We are connecting via social media, and we are putting our best pictures forward. I consider it a gift when someone is willing to show me their true self.


5) Vulnerability is a gift to yourself. 

- don't waste your time being someone else. Learn the art of being vulnerable so that you can be truly known.


6) It hurst like a bugger to be rejected in the midst of being vulnerable.

- If you put your honest self forward, show your heart, and are rejected, it's going to sting.

- Like I said, there are no guarantees. You may be rejected. I have been rejected. And it's ok. Rejection can be a gift too. It certainly doesn't feel that way. But when someone rejects you, consider it an opportunity to find your worth in yourself instead of finding it in what that person thinks/feels about you.


7) Vulnerability needs boundaries. 

- Brene Brown talks about this. Look up some of her work. She'll explain it better. But basically, I'll just say... that being vulnerable isn't just about spilling your garbage everywhere for everyone to see. Vulnerability has boundaries, there is balance to it. And that is beneficial for both you and the person witnessing your vulnerability.

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