"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable."
- C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves
C.S Lewis, you get me.
Sometimes it's hard to risk being seen, yes?
The more information you give someone, the more information they have to tear you down.
I have realized I'm a really good runner.... like I know how to run away from a situation before anyone sees me.
It's super weird, because I'm a musician. I stand in front of a room of people and sing my songs and let people see me. But when it comes to one on one.... I run before the other person has a chance to respond.
Interesting how our past haunts us. Interesting how we learn unhealthy habits and stick with them because we think they keep us safe. We also get scared of things, and stay scared of those things because we think our fear will protect us from those things happening again. I call BS. Being scared doesn't keep us safe. Being scared keeps us scared.
Risk. Is a good thing. I'm starting to take bigger risks.